growth.

regret.

Trying not to think about her

Drowning my thoughts in dark liquor

But it’s hard not to wonder if love heals the heart quicker

And if it does I want no part; I like being broken hearted

Because loneliness makes me see the beauty in where we started

How is it, no matter where I go, you seem to follow?

Catching me unexpected, memories hard to swallow

Smile etched upon your lips, behind it hides a frown

The same face that I make when whenever you come around

I’d rather feel awkward then feel alone

Remember the flowers when I left you when you were still at home?

Of course you do, they won’t let you forget

Real Emotion Grown Rapidly Earnest & True
                          regret.

Collapse.

The situation in which people are usually at their most attractive and interesting shortly before a total personality collapse.

- Douglas Coupland - Player One, Pg.221

Dancing with a Devil in a Tight Dress

Dancing with lust is like playing with fire
You will be burned alive by your own desire

Friendships Sink

I HATE YOU for being so charismatic
I HATE YOU for 'acting' genuine
I HATE YOU for disappearing when I needed you
AND
I HATE MYSELF for believing you actually cared

BUT maybe we aren't so different after all...

Confession #6

Old School.

I'd rather write on paper but then my words become more vulnerable.

boXed in.

I feel entrapped in, this world we are wrapped in
Placed in a box, I can't leave but they can enter
I can hear my inner voice clapping
While a chorus of boos is just my depression's reaction
To the positive fashion of which my ego has fastened
He envies my happiness, says it is not happening
But from nightmares I wake up to dreams
And from night terrors I wake up to screams
What does this all mean?
If life is but a dream, I'm on shits creek without a paddle
But I don't focus on energy on things beyond my control
I just keep moving forward, you just have to let them go
To all the friends I have lost, your true colors were starting to show
You can throw dirt on a diamond but in the right light it is gunna glow

high school party.