F is for Friend

Some friends are there for you thick and thin
Others are there for you like a cheap trick for grins-11-18-10

Friendships Sink

I HATE YOU for being so charismatic
I HATE YOU for 'acting' genuine
I HATE YOU for disappearing when I needed you
AND
I HATE MYSELF for believing you actually cared

BUT maybe we aren't so different after all...

And.

It starts with "Hello"
and ends without a "Goodbye".

Random Thoughts

Silence is golden. But my surroundings have left me broke.

Deaf ears shake in fear of a symphony of static noise.

I am on a journey to nowhere and content.

Numbers are evil.

The one with the most money has the most power.

Have you ever felt connected to another person? Like a soul connection.

You know that one person that will never leave the crevices in your mind, soul mate.

People have changed faces so rapidly in the past few years, I no longer feel.

Numbness.

Darkness.

Blackness.

Comfort.

Routine has rerouted the circuit breaker in my back.

Robotic.

Scripted.

Distance.

Bruised Thoughts

Living in the moment, will leave you jaded when you can't hold it
Picture it, when you have no pictures to touch and make reflections
Searching for souls with a handout reaching for that connection
Sleepless nights got me thinking about a lot about depression
Like what does it take for me to be content with every breathe
No more fantasizing about death, drive a car off a bridge
Never serious, though if you were ever there then you'd know just how it is
Grown but still as kids, heart know no misses, hands covered in blisters
Trying to tear these curtains into pieces, only to peer behind and find
The wizard of Oz is mirage, just false hope, time to realize
Only magic can be found in the man and the mirrors eyes
Or true love which in disguise will lead you to your demise
You can fall like some of the guys or begin your rise
You can fall
You can fall
Bruises and broken bones

You can fall

You can fall

But you'll never be alone

Technology

As life becomes more isolated and technology based
I am just trying to make hits to touch base 

5th Grade Came...

I miss my best friend from elementary school

We were joined at the hip until 4^th grade

That’s when I got glasses and girls became the cool thing

So I was replaced by the tall kid and a bunch of leeches

We still hung out my best friend and I

But we grew apart

5^th grade came we’d hang out after school but at school things changed

No longer first picked in football

Second to the dopey kid who was tall

Two years we didn’t share classes

Begged me to return to gifted my presence was immaculate

But I had no interest in added stress

I just sat in my normal class taking spelling test

End of the year party

I was invited but who wasn’t

End of the year field trip for the kids with orange belts

Wasn’t enough room for me in the hotel room

Without me budging in

I thought we’d be friends forever

Go to same university

Now you are in a universe without me

That university

I thought we’d be friends forever

This photograph won’t even last foreverI miss my best friend from elementary school

We were joined at the hip until 4^th grade

That’s when I got glasses and girls became the cool thing

So I was replaced by the tall kid and a bunch of leeches

We still hung out my best friend and I

But we grew apart

5^th grade came we’d hang out after school but at school things changed

No longer first picked in football

Second to the dopey kid who was tall

Two years we didn’t share classes

Begged me to return to gifted my presence was immaculate

But I had no interest in added stress

I just sat in my normal class taking spelling test

End of the year party

I was invited but who wasn’t

End of the year field trip for the kids with orange belts

Wasn’t enough room for me in the hotel room

Without me budging in

I thought we’d be friends forever

Go to same university

Now you are in a universe without me

That university

I thought we’d be friends forever

This photograph won’t even last forever

Iwearmyheartonmysleeve

Iwearmyheartonmysleeve

soeverythingIsayisoffthecuff

andfromtheheart<3

They

They show love, but what is love?
They show affection, hugs, and in return receive shoulder shrugs
They dap you up, hand shakes, head shakes, man's fake
Looking for acceptance through the liquid, man made

Curtain Call

First they try and friend you.

Paint a portrait then frame you.

Your life is like a work of art no wonder why they hang you.

We were brothers until “I don't want to hang dude”.

It’s gotten to the point that I begin to hate you.

Act is over; take a bow, close the curtains.

Were we really ever friends? I just can't be certain. 

Was I there to entertain your life circus?

Distance

In the company of others feeling so distant

This canopy of identity depends on whom I've been with

 I'm a chameleon changing in an instant

With dreams to make a million and burn it like some incense

They say I succumb to too much pressure

Sorting through the jewelry, I left upon my dresser

Looking for my chain, I hope it does impress her

Cause its the only heart I got and to Cupid I'm the jester 

Now, I'm saying more with the lesser

Unsure, insecure, I guess, I’m a guesser

A guest in my friend’s place of residence

Residue on my money wondered where it’s spent

Ain’t it funny this ain’t how we planned it

Life so off course I coulda sworn I’d crash-landed

On another planet, cash in hand granted

And I admit I past I had been taking it for granted

Now hitting rock bottom laying face down in granite

Forever Numb

When old friends reside in photographs
Folded laughs are all we have left to hold on to, grasp
New photos arise jealously goes without saying
I can see it in they eyes
Hear it in my smile yeah you can see it when I speak
I am in denial that we have parted ways
I am missing a part of me
You put blood into my arteries
Now I bleed but no love's lost
Your forever in my heart
Just another missing part
But if your ever come back around
That is a start, but I'm gone

Got a new social circle
I'm a standout so I'm outside
Looking inside, accepted but thin "Hi"s
Aren't the same, this desert bares rain

The Thrill is Gone

Pictures lie, memories stay, and the thrill of the past will never go away.

Remembered

Waking up from a dream that turns to a nightmare
Thats not fair, for you to take me there
I miss those memories
Do you remember me?

Such as Life...

Money is the only constant in my life right now

And I am stretching out my consonants because I can’t afford to buy a vowel

And everyone I trusted in my life has gone on trial
Convicted found guilty, now I'm broke when I smile

End of the Road

Death of a friendship
Slashes were intended
For your spinal cord
Now your feeling jaded
The reflection of self faded
And your seeing all the acquaintances in your past that you have hated